This school year so far

This school year so far is going great. I have made many friends. My grades are not so great but I am working on it. I have been struggling ever since my grandma died. I dont know what happened. Like right when she died i started to make bad grades and i even got on on my report card and thats not cool to get when you have never had one before. I just wish that my grand ma was still here because she was my motivation in everyday life. Now i have no one to push me. I will admit that when she was alive i didnt talk to her as much as i wanted to. I regret that to. If shew as alive i would do any and everything it would take to stay with her and call and talk to her more. But basically thats whats messing me up. I have no more grandparents and i cherished her more because she was my last one. :( i miss her!